I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Music of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the ego based on everything you request (agree with) in the mind. There’s number different way. In the Program, the mind (content) is split between Lord and the vanity; and you are choosing all the time with a side as cause for effect.
Forms (all things of the world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve caused it to be up (miscreated that world) and can give it down anytime by improving the mind (forgiveness). Correct prayer requires this correction of your brain as God has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
Because you are usually deciding, everything you request whenever you pray is what counts. When you plead in prayer to possess God fix a form trouble with another kind issue, you’re wondering the pride brain for support (not God). These forms and wants are considered more crucial than God’s Enjoy that will stay hidden to their education you choose the illusion.
All outside things (forms) are needs. Other labels are wants, needs, position, problems, vomiting, human enjoy (special relationships), presents and goals these days, etc. They are what you pick as replacements for God’s Love and the vanity can overlook the purpose of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Therefore, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.