I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. acim teacher The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not consider anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.